Time Warp
The last couple months have been busy, many changes taking place. On one hand I have legitimate excuses for not taking the time to keep up entries, but on the other hand it saddens me that these enormous changes and events have not been recorded. Something for me to stop and ponder. I have become more dedicated to learning and practicing the power of intention in my life. Mindfulness has become a natural part of my life vs. a sought after goal. Stopping to spend 2 hours watching an ant universe with Retta, doesn't always allow time for blogging.
I have recovered a lost relationship with my mother which has proved to be beautiful in every sense of the word. We laugh so much. I used to hide from her phone calls or take hours to recover from one, leaving me exhausted and writhing in emotional pain. Now..I don't want to hang up. She has said some things that have healed me so deeply. Old wounds that I forgot existed have disappeared... scars and all. I have had the opportunity to thank her for caring for me through my 1970 surgery. She cared for me lying flat in a body cast for a year..bed pan...changing kotex..the whole bit...for ONE year, all the while dealing with a womanizing husband, pending divorce and failing self-owned business. I no longer wonder where my strength comes from. It runs deep in the veins of the women of this family. I am pleased to have this time with her, free of guilt that I lost many years. They were in fact not lost years at all...but a necessary absence that makes this current relationship possible. It is just as it should be.
We have also made a decision to relocate to Boise, Idaho. After much research and soul search we have landed in Boise. We will be placing the house on the market in the spring and hope to be in Boise by summer. Butch and I have worked out some issues in our marriage and I am feeling more positive every day. We alsolaugh a lot more.
Idaho is a "free state." I do not even have to register my children with the school district in order to homeschool. No reviews...no questions. Total freedom. I am so excited.
So as you see we are still here, unschooling away. Embracing unschooling more naturally every day. It happens in spite of me, so I release. I still have my moments, but my trust is much deeper.
I will spend a few posts in the next several days catching up on some of our adventures, projects, travels and breakthroughs.
Is it truly possible that I have not made an entry since July? This really does shake me up a bit, and reminds me to take a second look at the area of my life that keeps me away from the things I love, this journal being one of them.
The last couple months have been busy, many changes taking place. On one hand I have legitimate excuses for not taking the time to keep up entries, but on the other hand it saddens me that these enormous changes and events have not been recorded. Something for me to stop and ponder. I have become more dedicated to learning and practicing the power of intention in my life. Mindfulness has become a natural part of my life vs. a sought after goal. Stopping to spend 2 hours watching an ant universe with Retta, doesn't always allow time for blogging.
I have recovered a lost relationship with my mother which has proved to be beautiful in every sense of the word. We laugh so much. I used to hide from her phone calls or take hours to recover from one, leaving me exhausted and writhing in emotional pain. Now..I don't want to hang up. She has said some things that have healed me so deeply. Old wounds that I forgot existed have disappeared... scars and all. I have had the opportunity to thank her for caring for me through my 1970 surgery. She cared for me lying flat in a body cast for a year..bed pan...changing kotex..the whole bit...for ONE year, all the while dealing with a womanizing husband, pending divorce and failing self-owned business. I no longer wonder where my strength comes from. It runs deep in the veins of the women of this family. I am pleased to have this time with her, free of guilt that I lost many years. They were in fact not lost years at all...but a necessary absence that makes this current relationship possible. It is just as it should be.
We have also made a decision to relocate to Boise, Idaho. After much research and soul search we have landed in Boise. We will be placing the house on the market in the spring and hope to be in Boise by summer. Butch and I have worked out some issues in our marriage and I am feeling more positive every day. We alsolaugh a lot more.
Idaho is a "free state." I do not even have to register my children with the school district in order to homeschool. No reviews...no questions. Total freedom. I am so excited.
So as you see we are still here, unschooling away. Embracing unschooling more naturally every day. It happens in spite of me, so I release. I still have my moments, but my trust is much deeper.
I will spend a few posts in the next several days catching up on some of our adventures, projects, travels and breakthroughs.
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